He made me say 'sorry' until he was satisfied . . .

It WAS a happy night... until he fucking decided to 'talk' to me. He casually mentioned for me not to throw the towel in the washing machine cos he didn't check in the afternoon and ended up washing his t-shirt along with the towel. I said sorry cos I really think it was my fault. He continued nagging and nagging, and end up he was so angry with the issue. I've said my apologies but he did not stop. He nagged until I got irritated. And then he in turn blamed me for showing a bad attitude.

So it became my way of saying sorry instead of what I did. I was sincerely sorry and I had done my part. But he accused me of not saying sorry the correct way. Why? He forgot the whole thing about me saying sorry first. He only remebered he nagged and nagged and nagged and in the end I got irritated.

He is mad. Totally mad! When I apologised, he did not stop. When he nagged on and on until it blew out of proportion and grew out of hand, then he started forgetting about my sincere apologies and simply threw all responsibilities on me about my lack of good attitude.

BLOODY HELL, WHAT"S WRONG WITH THIS MAN!!!! OR IS HE A MAN IN THE FIRST PLACE.....!

IT"S BLOODY TIRING . . .

It's damn bloody tiring! He went on his round again today. We were happily having lunch, then he mentioned about exercising, said that I did not go to the gym when I said I wanted to. Then I casually mentioned that 'yalor, been watching too much soccer... sigh...'!

That's it. I went through hell for that. He said I gave excuses for not going. I had many chances to go jogging, but I did not go. In the end, I was again at the receiving end of a hurl of abuses and accusations. Simply put, I still think that whatever responses I give, it's gonna give me hell. Not that I'm bias, but trial and error showed that there is never gonna be a right way. Anything and everything is wrong in his eyes!

When we were having tea at his parents' place, he told me to go drinking with him and his friends during the world cup match. I rejected him, saying I need to iron clothes (cos he says nothing gets done when he doesn't initiate) and I need to exercise (cos he says I do everything and anything else except exercising). He was shocked. He didn't expect me to reject. Then he said it is ok for tonight, he will not push me about exercising, we will do it during the weekends. I asked him straight in the face if it's me who did not try to find time, or it's really that my schedule was packed. What did we do last night? 49 days ceremony for his granny. I could not afford to miss it, and he jolly well knew that. What did we do on Tues night? We planned to go to the gym but he came back late and was tired at night, I was busy with work too, and he jolly well knew that. I specifically asked him if it's my activities who deterred me from going to gym or it's just me finding excuses not to go. He agreed that it was unavoidable. (But let me guess, the next time it's going to happen, maybe even within this week, if his temper is going to fly again, he will again blame it on me not finding time and looking for excuses always, that's why I was not able to go to the gym or to jog.)

Even till late at night, he asked me to compose an email for him. I composed and read it to him. He commented. I thought he missed what I had said and so I told him again what I had typed. HE HIT THE ROOF!!!!!!!!! He insisted that my attitude was bad, that when he tells me what to do, I should just simply do it and not ask, not question, nor do anything else other than do what he told me to do. I swallowed my anger, apologized and walked over to him to calm him down. He finally cooled off and stopped.....for less then 5 mins. He again started to nag and nag, I again stood up and walked over to him to calm him down again. And then he stopped again.....for less than 5 mins. He again started nagging again. I went over to him again to calm him down. He stopped, ....... and started again. IT'S BLODDY TIRING......! HOW MANY TIMES DOES HE THINK THAT I CAN DO THIS AND DON'T GO MAD!?!!?!?!!?? DID HE INTEND TO MAKE ME HELP HIM THROUGH CONSTANTLY SWALLOWING MY ANGER, WALKING TO HIM, AND CALMLY COOL HIM OFF!?!?!?!?!?!?

For at least 4 times, I calmed him down, but he started off again in less than 5 mins....! I am not a trained nurse, nor a psychiatrist. I AM THE BLOODY FUCKING SUBJECT THAT HE IS SCOLDING! How does he expect and demand that I keep my cool to help him cope with his FUCKING TEMPER!!!!!!!!

Oversensitive and mad . . .

This fucking bastard is so super over sensitive and freaking ridiculous.

This afternoon he called me, I was on another call and told him that I would call him back. I finally got off the phone after quite a while and returned his call. This was our conversation.

Me : "Hello, you called me just now? What about?"
Him : "Nothing, I don't need you already. I wanted you to help me checked an email."
Me : "OK! Sorry, just now I was on a call so couldn't help."
Him : "It's OK!"
Me : "So where are you now leh?"
Him : "Suntec"
Me : "Suntec? Aey? What are you there for?"
Him : "............... IC" (mumbling, I couldn't catch what he was saying)
Me : "IC? What happened?"
Him : "HEY, I DO NOT NEED TO REPORT TO YOU MY EVERY MOVE EVERYDAY OK!!!! YOU LISTEN TO ME LOUD AND CLEAR, I DO NOT NEED TO REPORT TO YOU OR ANYBODY!"

Tell me what's wrong with me just casually asking MY HUSBAND where he was? He insisted that I chased him for his whereabouts everyday. He said I wasn't giving him breathing space. He stressed that I was tracking his everyday whereabouts and wants me to report to him on who he met, what he did, and where he was everyday, every hour.

HOLY COW!!!!! I rarely ever ask him where he was. For so many Fridays, I knew he went to meet his BLOODY FUCKING G, but I couldn't be bothered to ask him where he was. I rarely ever call him even, to track his whereabouts, cos I am always busy at work. It's always he who calls me, and sometimes even asking me where I was, when he jolly well knew I was in the office or at home by my work station, where else can I go during office hours. That was alright, cos he was just concerned about me. But when I asked him about it, he just blew up and accused me of tracking him and tying him so tight that he couldn't breathe.

Goodness! When I had my mind fully on my work, and I didn't ask about him, he said I wasnt' caring. But when I asked him questions about what he is doing, he accused me of controlling him. What the bloody hell this idiot is thinking about.... I seriously wonder!

When he came home, he wasn't about to let things rest. I was acting quite coldly towards him. On our way to his parents' house for his granny's 49-day ceremony, he asked me if I had anything to say. I said no (what does he want me to say, asking him about his day will seem like I'm controlling him again). He asked again, and past experiences tells me that there are 3 possibilities, he was either just waiting for me to apologize (and if I didn't, he would say that I have a bad attitude) or waiting for me to raise the topic so that he could scold me, or he was seriously trying to get me to talk, and if I didn't, he would say that I keep things to myself and not grab the chance when he asked me to speak. Whatever I chose, it would probably not be the right one, he would always say that I should haven't chosen otherwise.

Anyway, I just took one of the choices, knowing that I would be wrong, and told him what I did not like (he did encourage me to say what I did not like). In the end, another predictable end. He had threw my comments out and insisted that I was wrong, I wasn't caring, I was insensitive, I was not ladylike, not wifely, etc.....

I tried to calm him down, only to have him start another round within 3 mins. All the way till we reach the door step of his parents' house, he went on non-stop.

He is just unbelievably sensitive and .... simply put.... mad!!!!

His brain must be just a green gluey mass . . .

Know what happened yesterday? No prize for guessing. He asked me to drive, and of course I have to say yes. Cos I'll be deemed to avoid driving, or lazy, or coward if I say no. So yes, I drove. And so the answer to my above question is a gift question. If you have read through all my posts, there is only one confirmed conclusion.

HE NAGGED AT ME AGAIN, for stupid things like stepping too hard on the accelerator, which lane I should be on, which vehicle I should not be following, which vehicle I should overtake. He had damn a lot of saliva to spare. He was not happy the way I parked the car, cos it's not 90 degrees right angle to the lot. Maybe 91-95 degree. So what did he do?

WE SPEND A WHOLE DAMN 20 MINS IN THE CARPARK COS HE ORDERED ME TO PARK, DRIVE OUT OF THE LOT, GO TAKE A SPIN UPSTAIRS AND BACK AND PARK AGAIN!!!!! Imagine how many times I went through that, just cos his stupid ego and temper drove him nuts!!!!! In the end, he was tired and couldn't bother if I parked straight or not. And finally we can walk back home. And along the way, he had more saliva to spare, scolding and nagging all the way up.

And guess what, he rarely parked the car straight himself nowadays, and he of course, can get away with it. Cos I could not nag at him for sure, he will say I was trying to pick up a fight. And I could not correct him and make him drive around for sure, cos he will say I show a bad attitude and just asking for trouble. Yah, and the 'I am the king, I rule this house, I set the game, and you better play by my rules' theory!

What's new.....!

FUCKING MAD DOG...!

It's no use when he has enough of sleep. It's no use when he is satisfied with his weight losss accopmlishment. It's no use when he earns a tidy sum in such a few days. HE IS STILL MAD!!!!!!

It WAS such a beautiful afternoon. BUT what did he do, he simply spoilt it with his stupid temper.

He walked into the room and started ordering me to pass the supplements that my friend had ordered to them. He said he had collected it for a week already and it is still left there. He continued to nag at me for showing no initiative, don't do things that needs to be done. He scolded me for not doing anything for so many days.

How will you feel when someone just barked at you like a mad dog for such small things? And it he had full idea of what happened throughout the week. He had collected the products last Monday. I had told him to pass them to the couple at night when they met him to pass him the cake. HE FORGOT!!!!!!! Then on Tuesday, we wanted to meet the couple but the timing wasn't right. We then said we will meet on Thursday for movie. On Thursday, they could not match our timing and thus we failed to meet again. On Friday I wanted to find time, but the couple was busy cos it was their son's baby shower. Today, the couple had wanted lunch, but they couldn't make it in the end too. SINCE WHEN DID I NOT SHOWN THE INITIATIVE TO MEET UP AND PASS THE THINGS TO THEM!???!?!?!?

Whatever happened throughout the week, he knows. And he knows the full story!!!! So why is he blaming me for not being able to pass the products to them? Anyway, what's the big deal of just waiting for another couple of days, or another opportunity to meet up!?!?!?!? THEY JUST HAD A BABY AND ARE BUSY THESE FEW DAYS COS IT"S THE BABY SHOWER!!!!! WHAT"S UP WITH THIS MAD MAN!?!?!?!?!?!?

If he wants his money, just let me know he doesn't have enough. We can work it out. I'll just pay him first and wait for the couple to pay me. WHAT"S THE PROBLEM!?!?!?!?!?!??!? He ordered me to pass it to them today!!!! TODAY!!!!!!! Whatever, so I contacted them and got their plans for today. I told him about it, our timing don't match. So he said what about tomorrow. SEE, HE KNOWS HIMSELF THAT WHEN TIMING DON"T MATCH, HE CAN"T FORCE THINGS TO HAPPEN, YOU"LL HAVE TO WAIT FOR THE NEXT OPPORTUNITY!!!!!!!

TELL ME WHAT"S THIS FUCKING MAD DOG BARKING AT ME FOR!?!!?!??

He has PMS....!

He is crazy. This afternoon, we were to meet his sis for lunch opposite. He wanted to get the car key from his dad, who was driving his sis around. He told me to call her and tell her that he will wait below our flat for his dad to pass him the car keys. So I called, I got his sis on the line, and I asked if dad is having lunch with us. From this moment on, he started getting angry. Guess what made him angry???? If you correctly guessed it, you are probably a CONTROL FREAK as well!

He snapped at me, saying it was just a simple instruction, why can't I get it right. He told me to tell her that HE WILL WAIT BELOW OUR FLAT FOR HIS DAD TO PASS THE CAR KEYS TO HIM. But I instead, went to ask something else and in the end confuse things up.

Tell me something about this man that I married. Is he NUTZ!?!??!? If he wanted what he wanted, jolly well do it himself. He wanted me to do it and yet he insisted on me saying what he wants to say, and only what he wants to say, and how he wants to say it. BLOODY BASTARD!!!!!

Was he on the phone with his sis? No!!!! Does he know what happened between us in the phone conversation? No!!!! THEN WHO IS HE TO COMMENT ON WHAT I SAY... AS LONG AS I GET THINGS SORTED OUT AND HE GETS HIS CAR KEYS!!!!!!

When I got his sis on the phone, I asked if his dad wanted to lunch with us, if yes, we can just meet for lunch and get the car keys. Nobody needs to wait for anybody. Then his sis asked dad, and I thought she was talking to me, so I said 'Huh?' when she said 'You come and lunch with us lah!'. Whatever the case, it's just a few seconds of confusion before we got back on track and set a plan to meet for lunch together and his dad can pass the car keys to him.

Truthfully, I had done my job of getting him to pick up his car keys form his dad. I had found out something extra and made things easier so that nobody needs to wait for nobody. I had simply asked a question that is not what he wanted me to say. But his ultimate motive was to get his car keys from his dad. WHICH I HAD PLANNED OUT TO ACCOMPLISH IN THE EASIEST WAY. So tell me, what's wrong with him. What right has he to scold me, what has he to scold me about?!!!?!?!?

After I put down the phone, I told him I asked that question to get a better picture and then plan for the most easiest and direct way, which I successfully accomplished. He listened and nod his head and said 'OK!'. I sincerely believed he was not OK! Cos he didn't get to scold me, and he didn't get to venge his anger fully.

How right am I! When I told him we could leave, he said go give him 5 mins. A few mins later, I'm not too sure how many mins, it's between 4-5 mins, I asked him again if we could leave. Just a question, a kind reminder. No harsh tone, no impatient tone, no pressing tone. And what did he show me? He gave me such a rude attitude and sour face that you would have thought I had nagged at him for 10 mins. He shouted 'I said 5 mins means 5 mins. Don't you understand? Why are you so insensitive?'. Then he stormed out of the room. He had just managed to pick up another fight to scold me.

I waited for him to get out from the washroom, and told him I'll go first. He could go down when he is ready. He told me to wait for him, and when he was ready, he ordered me to stand in front of him. And beginning to scold me for I don't know what. Bad attitude? Insensitivity? Dont' know how to help him? STUPID SEA URCHIN!!!!! How to help him when he doesn't listen to me, doesn't want to calm the fire, doesn't want to do anything except to hear me apologize and follow his orders about.

I finally managed to calm him down and told him that we should stop this argument now and carry on with our day. He agreed...... but within 3 mins, he was back at nagging at me about my attitude, what I should not have done, what he was angry about. I apologized again and told him that we should stop this now. He agreed.... and lo and behold, within 3 mins, he started again. Of course he always want the last word, so I again apologized but reminded him again that he was the one who wanted me to help him. Then he has to listen and cooperate when I give a suggestion to stop an argument. If he just overwrite my initiative to stop the argument everytime I tried to help, I would not be able to help him anymore. He said 'OK... but please, don't do it the next time. Help me OK?' FINE!!!! BLOODY ASSHOLE, I"LL HELP, SINCE YOU LOVE YOUR FACE SO MUCH, THAT YOU DEFINITELY MUST MAKE IT SUCH THAT I APOLOGIZE AT THE END OF THE ISSUE, THEN FINE, I"LL JUST SAY OK TO MAKE YOU HAPPY! He always has his sorry-but sentence to say whenever he apologize for anything. Cos he wants to make sure that if he apologize, it's not purely his mistake, you are as much to be blamed for it, and thus you will have to apologize too whenever he does. And of course, when you are the last to apologize, he has more face.

FUCKING IDIOT!!!!!