Sicko Non-repentent

Bet he was testing me, he mentioned that he had a lunch appointment tomorrow. Of which I gave an OK and continued watching TV. I think he was expecting me to ask him who and where.

After a while, I asked him where he was having his lunch. I wanted to see if it's on the way to my office. He replied saying 'He needs to do this lunch. With that bitch'. I forgot if I asked him why, but I didn't change my tone. But guess what he said.

He said 'you had shouted at her and was very rude, so I have to treat her lunch to apologize to her.' I told him I have no regrets. I still wasn't shouting. But he continued to say that I had went there to 闹, I really fumed. What does he mean when he said that I 闹. I stood up and asked him to explain himself. To me, he sounded like I had 无理取闹. What the hell, does he mean I had no reason to be so angry and kicked up a big fuss for no reason!?!?!?!?!?!?

He lied to me and I caught him red-handed, and he said that my anger is baseless. That shows how much he had repented. He talked like I did something wrong to that bitch and he had to go and treat her lunch to apologize on my behalf. Please, I do not regret what I had done and I don't need to apologize to her at all, why does he need to treat her lunch and apologize for me scolding her? She deserves it, every bit. And he deserves to be scolded by her if she was angry for being scolded by me. Why did he say it like I am to be blamed for her being angry and him needing to treat her lunch and apologize to her????

I asked him if I have the right to be angry. He said he know that it was not my character to shout at people. Damn! I blew my top. I told him he doesn't really know me. I don't get angry often doesn't mean I do not have a temper. I am a girl with pride. Does he think that everybody can walk all over my head and I still am expected to smile and be nice to that asshole? I do not have a habit of scolding people, but if somebody ever cross the line and goes too much overboard, does he still expect me to be nice to that asshole? And if my character is such, does he think that he had gone too much overboard and had caused me to not be my normal self?

He said no matter what, I had been rude and he needed to apolgoize. I told him specifically that he needs to apologize to her that he lied to me and caused me to be very angry and did it to her. He shouldn't be apologizing to her that I had done something wrong. From then on, he started saying he didn't say I was in the wrong and it was he who was wrong that caused me to do something out of ordinary. Bloody him! He needed me to point out to him that the gist of it is HE HAD LIED TO ME AND I HAD CAUGHT HIM RED-HANDED AND THAT WAS WHY I BLEW MY TOP!!!!!!! He didn't realise why he was wrong until I told him the difference. So he blamed me for not acting in a proper manner that day. Tell me if this is not unrepentent, this is what!!!!!!!!

He said we have settled the issue between us, and he had to settle the issue with her and treat her to lunch. I told him he should have treated me to 3 meals and apologize to me formerly. He said he did. I asked him did he apologize about the previous bitch. He said I was thinking too much again. Bloody him! I told him we are 2 couples, and 3 of us had admitted that whatever went on shouldn't have happened and was wrong, but he still insisted that he had done nothing wrong. That bitch even told her hubby to try to meet me to apologize face-to-face, and he still can deny that he did wrong. I asked him has he ever been repentent about his ways. I told him my trust for him was at negative, and he had promised to do something about it. But what did he do? He went on with another story with another stupid bitch. I told him she had already confessed on the lacy panties that he had bought were for her, and for her wedding present, but what did he do, he still deny that it had happened. I had all the evidence spread out on the table for him, but he still tried to wiggle his way without admitting his own error.

He argued that he did say his sorry. I told him to say it again. He said 'sorry'. I asked him sorry for what, tell me one whole sentence about what he was sorry about regarding that previous bitch. He kept quiet. He kept quiet for a few minutes, he just didn't know what to say. See, he still doesn't want to admit his wrongdoings. Finally, he said he was sorry, that maybe they went too far and too close. I threw his comment back to him. I told him he had never apologized to me. Even when he tried, he still had to use 'but', 'if' and 'maybe' to show that he was not wrong.

I told him evidence was so clear. I had that previous bitch's husband calling me to apologize. I had the current bitch confessing that he had bought lacy panties for her. But he still refused to admit either of it without any 'but', 'if' or 'maybe'. What did he do? He again stood against the claim that he had bought lacy panties for her, and he said he would ask that bitch herself about it. I told him it would be best if three of us would sit down and talk about it. He said fine, if I'm free tomorrow, we shall all have lunch together. I said I have all the time in the world. He said before meeting her for lunch tomorrow, I'll have to think through it and calm myself down. I told him at tomorrow's lunch, he better watch what he says, if he ever put the blame on me for causing much unhappiness, he better be careful. He told me he hates to be threatened. I told him I hate to be lied to. He kept quiet.

He then said that I was not in a mind to talk reasonably. And that I had acted rashly. I told him I had kept my cool for so many damn long years, that's more then enough to consider my fair share. He said maybe it is his retribution that I am so unreasonable when I am angry because he must be as unreasonable when he was in a foul mood. He asked to go to sleep and me to calm down. I told him his retribution is not enough, he could ask to go to sleep and I said yes, I'm letting him out too easily.

He walked out and walked back, and tried to tell me my temper was very bad and I was beyond reasoning. I told him check on himself when he blares on non-stop every other day when his temper got the better of him. He said he doesn't want us to end up not on talking terms because of my unreasonableness. I told him who did want it to end when I told him to go to sleep and he had walked back to start another talk. He smiled and asked me if I had been scolding people before I met him. I said no. He asked if I would go on non-stop when I start scolding people. I said no. Then he said he should look at himself and change because I'm learning his wrong way of dealing with things and it's not good!

Asshole!!!!!! If you dare try to blame me again for what had happened on that Friday a few weeks back, I'll have you eat your own shit!

Crazy

How crazy can one get? I'll tell you how!

After a whole day out at work, he came home. After just a few minutes of changing out, he went to the kitchen, I went too, and commented 'It's so hot until I'm sweating!'

The next thing I know, he was bellowing to me about why I am stupid enough not to on the aircon. He wasn't nagging, he wasn't advicing, he was shouting at the top of his voice, hurling abuses at me, ordering me to appear in front of him immediately. I was bewildered, but I had tried not to take it too personally (like what he says I normally am, and that was why I always think that he is scolding me while he is just commenting). I went to him and said sorry. But he did not stop. His face was as black as charcoal. He was still roaring at me saying I was idiot and I was stupid not to on the aircon. I told him directly that I am not going to take it personally and I apologized again. But still, he did not stop. I ended up getting scolded like I had killed someone. I tried to calm him down, but he shook me off, and continued to belittle me. I grew irritated and started to tell him how ridiculous he is, he just stepped back home and had already started a quarrel out of nothing, I told him I'll rather he is outside and I have peace and quiet here instead of having him to return and pick up a fight immediately.

So there he went again. Ordering me to stand in front of him, and stand normally (I seriously don't know what is normal to him, when he is angry, he simply find anything that you do to blame you), talk normally, and etc... I had enough, so I told him I want to go to the bedroom to cool down. Basically, I just want to get this stupid jerk out of my face. Finally after rounds of saying sorry, I was free to go. But he still has to pop in to the room and give me a dress down before leaving me alone.

I dozed off a while, but woke up soon after. I felt hungry and decided to go for dinner. I purposely did not talk to him or call him for dinner. When he heard me opening the door, he called me. I told him I'm hungry but I shouldn't complain before I had started solving it, so I didn't want to tell him I was hungry. Ha! I know, I'm irritating him. But I wanted to! So in the end, we had another reasoning session. He said sorry for shouting at me, but it's just him, his sorry came with other accusations and expectations from me.

Whatever . . . !

I'm a self-certified Private Eye

Hey, being a Private Eye isn't all that difficult. I successfully caught CM with that Bitch today. It wasn't the first time I had tried to catch them after their secret lunch. In early July, I had already figured out what time they need to get back from lunch and where he dropped her off after meals. This time round, it's not that difficult to plan where to stand and at what time to be there.

I deliberately called him at 1330 to force him to tell me where he is. He was his normal sly self, telling me he was eating. He didn't mention about his location. I deliberately suggested a location and asked him if he was there. He said yes. First step accomplished. He managed to fall snuggly into my trap. When the time to come back to office neared, I positioned myself behind a pillar opposite her office. Right when I had expected them to pull in, they did just that. Cool! I was all ready to pounce on them. I walked right across the street, opened the driver's door, off the engine, pulled the key (actually it's half the key, luckily I didn't spoil it) out, and shouted at him 'Tanjong Pagar?'. I slammed his door and realised that the bitch was already trying to head back to her office as fast as she could. I shouted at her 'Bitch, stop where you are going.' Ha, she responded. What a bitch!

I asked her what is it about meeting him every week for lunch or tea. Nothing unexpected came from her. Denial, denial and denial! She promised me there is nothing going on between them. I told her, yes, you didn't go to bed with him, so? It's so normal to have some guy pop over every week to have lunch or tea with her and she feels it's fine? She said it's normal, she has guy friends who are very close to her, she doesn't think that he is interested in her, and he only happens to be in the vicinity that's why he is meeting her for lunch or tea. What crap. I told her it's not normal for a guy to meet a girl every week for lunch, and for goodness sake he doesn't work there, what makes her think that he is in the vicinity and just popping by for lunch. I told her I have her stuff in my hands, a scrunchy which I'm not sure if it's hers but lacey panties are definitely hers. She dared to stare wide eye at me, like I do not know what I am talking about. I told her years ago, he ordered online from FigLeave, 2 lacey panties for her. She then acted like she suddenly remembered, then she said he had wanted to give her a wedding present. Great, I pinned her to it. Does she think it is that normal for some guy to buy lacey panties for another girl for wedding present? But this bitch had the cheek to tell me she didn't get it. I told her of course she didn't get it, that's because they are in my hands. So she knew he had bought it for her (I didn't mention when it happened, I just said a few years back, but she knew it was when she had her wedding), and she is lying through her teeth that she thinks he has no feelings towards her, and she had lied that she didn't know what he is getting for her although he told her he is getting something for her as a wedding present (then how in the world did she associate the panties to her wedding). Stupid, plain stupid!

I told her she has been very unfair to her hubby. She said her hubby knows that they have been meeting. I asked her her hubby knows that they had been meeting up every week, she said yes. One day, I'll get his number and ask him personally if these secret lunches and tea sessions go on.

She gave me crap stories saying she has other guy friends who are also that close to her. I asked her so those guys meet her up every week. She said they are not that free. Fine. So those guys aren't as close lah. It's a different story when a guy meets a girl EVERY WEEK compared to close but meet only now and then for meals. Duh! Another stupid comment!

Anyway, I told her the best way is to fuck off and be gone from this world! I headed back to confront him. He was talking on the phone. Heck! I shouted at him again. 'Tanjong Pagar?' He quickly got off the phone. I asked him again. 'Tanjong Pagar? Alone? Checking if the sun shines on your store?' He tried to defend himself. 'No, I said I was eating.' Luckily he did not go on after that. He was caught red-handed and he still dared to try to wiggle his way out. He apologised immediately and said he would drive me home. I wouldn't get into the car cos he would drive around madly. He promised he would not. So I got in, and started shouting at him for half the journey. At first, he said sorry about lying but he didn't want to admit that he is wrong. He said he didn't want me to be unhappy that's why he lied to me, he insisted he didn't meet her weekly, he tried to find a way out with the lacey panties. But he has no corner to hide. I had all the cards in my hands. He had indeed lied to me, she had admitted about the lacey panties and if they had not met for one week, that's because she was not in town or he had been very busy. But once he has the chance, he will go out of his way to meet her. He was speechless while I ranted on about his past misdeeds. I told him there were so many people who got worried for me because he had been too close to another girl for comfort. Even when the other bitch's hubby called me up to complain and that bitch herself wanted to meet me to apologise, he was trying to deny everything. Now that he is caught red-handed by me, he is still trying to wiggle his way out by pure denial again. I told him his integrity of owning up to his faults and quietly bear the scoldings have gone down the drain. He had showed me nothing apart from pure denial and trying to look for excuses instead of admitting and bearing the consequences.

I told him partners are there to help each other in achieving their best, but my partner is not. I did not like to fly partly because he contributed to it. I prefer a job with a lot of flexibility because of him as well. I have to do so much to protect my self interest that I cannot concentrate fully on making the most out of my career. I tell him not to blame me when he is abusing my trust and the freedom that I had given him. I told him as a scorpion, I am supposed to be full of jealousy. But I gave him so much freedom on the contrary. Yet he took it for granted and abused it.

Now, I have the upper hand, I'll slowly torture him!