BLOODY OVERLY SENSITIVE BRAT . . .

What's with him? Mad or something? I was already quite irritated with his stupid insistance. I drove to Great World with him. We went up, then came back to the carpark to put his magazine. Then when we went up, half way through he said he was not feeling well, I asked him if he wanted to buy medicine from the pharmacy, he said he has medicine in the car. So I went down to take the medicine from the car (Hey, no prize for guessing, but if I was the one who did not take the medicine when we were at the car a minute ago, I would be condemned upside down for always taking the long way to do things, never doing the right things, doing nothing when something should be done, but doing something when nothing needs to be done, etc...). Then when we left the car and wanted to go back up, he said he had taken the last dosage of the medicine and there was no point taking the medicine upstairs, we went back to the car to put his medicine back. I unlocked the car doors as he approached, I waited for him at just 5 steps away. When he finished, he crossed over to me. I locked the car. When he reached me, he asked me if I had locked the car. I said yes. He said he did not see me lock it and insisted that I press the locked button once again. So, I pressed the locked button once. Then he insisted that I was wrong, I should be pressing it twice to lock the car. I said I know but I had already locked the car already. He insisted I pressed the locked button consecutively twice to show him. I was irritated plus irritated. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM!!! I've driven the god damn car for two months. Would you forget how to lock the car after just one week of non-driving? It is not the first time I drove him around and locked the car doors before leaving. So what is he trying to prove when he insisted that he did not see me lock the car (how big an action does he expect me to do when I lock the car door? It's just two consective press on the button.), and insisted that I press the locked button once again, and when I pressed once, he insisted that I had to press it twice..... Whatever joke that he was trying to crack, it was a super lousy joke that won't make an ant laugh.

Irritated enough, when driving back home, he said turn left when driving out, I didn't pay attention to him and turn right. But anyhow, just need a few more turns, I'll still be able to get out of the carpark, what's wrong? I didn't go against the traffic and I didn't knock down a man for turning right. Then of course on the road, he complained about this and that, the way I drove, whatever he could think of. Then he nagged and nagged and nagged at the top of his voice in a tone akin to scolding. I gave him a loud 'sorry, dear' signal, before he was willing to stop the nag, and say sorry for blowing up.

But of course, how sorry can he get. When we reached home, I parked a little left, he wanted me to shift the car. I admit that I am not the best parker around, and he knew it for quite long that I didn't know how to judge a slight tilt, but like a perfectionist he is, he complained and nagged and scolded me. I just apologized. Then when he was about to finish his sentence, I thought we could finally start walking back home while he continue with his naggings, so I turned and started walking. Then, he blew up (maybe out of inferior complex). He scolded me for my attitude, my behaviour, turning my back when he was talking. Whatever, so I said sorry. I said sorry twice. But he just refused to take it, he repeated his 'Why did you do that?' question 3 times (when I asked him a question when I was scolding him, what did he say? He scolded me for asking so many questions. Yeah, double standard. HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE GOD DAMN WANTS). By the 3rd time, I was irritated enough, I argued. So he said why did I argue. Then I said sorry again.

Do you know what he said? He said why didn't I apologize in the first place. I APOLOGIZED TWICE BEFORE AND HE REFUSED TO TAKE IT. Now he dare to accuse me of not apologizing first. FUCK!!!!!!

Whatever, now he is still trying to find fault with me. A twitch of my facial muscle is 'snarling'. A step slower than him is 'bad behaviour'. A non-smiling face when he look at me is 'attitude face'.

YOU DESREVED TO BE FUCKED!!!!!!

HE IS A LIAR, UNFAITHFUL & UNGRATEFUL . . .

He has been meeting G twice this week. BLOODY LIAR!!!!!

He has not learnt his lesson since the first G. Great, the more he meet her, the more chances I have to catch them. And then I'll see what he has to say and how he can redeem himself.

BLOODY BITCH!!!!! She is married!!!!! AND SHE IS FUCKING UGLY!!!!!!!!

One day, I'll catch them red handed. I'll snarl at her, taunt her, and belittle her in front of him.

I CAN"T WAIT FOR THAT DAY TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!

He broke another 2 things . . .

What's new! He had been breaking things since we were together. After I woke him up, he apologized for blowing up at me for no reason just now. I then asked him why he did that, I wanted him to apologize for kicking up a fuss when I didn't accept his apology for the first time. He was listening to me at first, then he made stupid remarks like 'Why I have so many questions. If I want to scold him, I'll just scold him. Why do I bother to ask him questions.'

DUH!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

I told him that when he was scolding me, he has a thousand and one questions for me too. And he even demanded that I answer him quick, to the point and correctly (I reckon correctly means whatever he wants to hear, not whatever is correct). So what the fuck does he think he is doing when he complain about me asking so many questions when I scold him.

Anyway, I told him that if he is so clever and supposedly good at handling situations when someone is angry (since he scolded me for being stupid when handling the situations when he was scolding me, then I should have considerable grounds to expect him to be able to handle then), he should just answer my questions correctly, look at me, and stop giving those uncalled for comments.

I don't know what else was said, I just remembered I ended up shouting at him with the top of my voice. I was very very very angry with him. I even told him that he better stop blaming me for causing him to loose control of his temper. A man doesn't easily get influenced by a woman. Then he blew up even more.

He went stomping around, ordering me to squat down in front of him. Of course, I was not ready to relent. He then went on and threw things around. He broke the coin bank and the padestral. And ordered me to clear the mess. I called his sis, and made sure I was heard loud and clear that I need to clean up my room as it was in a terrible mess and that the whole family would have to wait for me.

And since he broke my padestral, I emptied his and used it like it's mine. Only then did he try to joke and said that he liked me this way.

BLOODY HELL!!!!!! He then went around saying things and doing stuff like nothing has happened. He's mad!!!!!!!

What the FUCK . . .

Am I to be happy that he did not blow up that often and give in to him when he is unreasonable beyond sense?

He was with his sis downstairs, waiting for me to go down to meet them. He called me the first time. I missed it. He then called me the second time 2 minutes later and when he realised that I was already downstairs, he blew up. God damn! What kinda human will be so demanding. He only wanted me to help him get a contact number down for him. I missed his call and thus was not able to help him. Because of this, he blew into a rage.

Come on! Does my world have to revolve around him? Was I on a call and missed his first call, and when I put down the phone he made his second call but I've already reached downstairs? Or if I was in the washroom and didn't hear the call, and on rushing out of the house, I didn't bother to check if my phone had rang in the one minute that I wasn't with my phone? Whatever reason I have, it doesn't justify him to throw his temper around.

Even with his sis around, he didn't care a heck and scolded me. He then raved the car and drove around recklessly. I bet he gave his sis a scare by the way he drove. On reaching his parents' flat, while his mom got on, I told him I missed his first call cos I was on the phone. He then went all quiet. He drove us to the mall, and told us to alight first and go for lunch. He then went on home, making all 5 of us wait for him at the restaurant. When I called his first reaction was 'Oh, you are waiting for me for lunch? I thought you didn't want to see my face!'

Yes, for god sake, I didn't want to see your face, really. But everybody expects you to be there for lunch and you jolly well know you are to be present. Don't play games with me and make me feel like the culprit who caused you not to be present. I told him we were all waiting for him. He then apologized to me. Just a simple one word 'sorry'. I seriously was not in a mood to take an apologization after he played games like going home and hide while the whole family waits for him, and in the end I had to call him to 'beg' him to come. So I ignored his apology and told him we were still waiting for him here. He then grew angry. He said he offered an apology and since I did not take it, I was the trouble finder and he would just stay at home. SPOILT BRAT!!!!! I told him how sorry can he get when he was still playing games with me by not turning up when he was expected to. And by getting angry when he only apologized once. He got even angrier and slammed the phone on me.

I called again. I said if he was sincere enough to apologize, I want to see him here at the restaurant now. He slammed the phone again.

I called again, he told me to stop calling if I was just saying some crap things that he didn't want to hear. I was boiling and told him he has no sincerity at all and slammed the phone.

Guess what, he called me back and demanded an apology because I slammed the phone on him. He told me he can do it on me, but not I on him. He told me it was all my fault. That I didn't accept an apology when he offered and then I slammed the phone on him. He said it's his world, his games, his rules and he is the king and only he can slam my phone.

WHAT BLOODY FUCKING IDIOT DOES HE THINK HE IS!!!!!?!?!?!?!?

He demanded an apology. When I said 'sorry', he said if I was not willing to say sorry, then don't say, and call back when I was ready. Then....he just hung up.

See, BLOODY SUCKERFISH!!!!!! When I apologize once, he won't take it, he would say something stupid and make me do some other things until he is happy to accept it. BUT when he says sorry the first instant, he expects me to swallow all my anger and just accept and welcome him back with open arms.

I called him again, and told him sorry again (just to make sure he appear in the restaurant). He lectured me a few more sentences. Then he said he would be here soon.

When he reached, he put on a good bloody show like nothing had happened. He talked normally, joked normally, offered me food, like he damn bloody has done no wrong.

And the cold war is still on, cos I refuse to talk to him until he apologize a dozen times, give me a good reason why he acted like a DAMN BLOODY STINKO MONKEY WHO DOESN"T HAVE HUMANITY, and promise he will not do it again.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed . . .

I see changes. I'm keeping my fingers crossed! But he is indeed more tolerable now. And I'm more willing to do things for him. I feel happier doing things for him. And I feel more apologetic when my temper is short.

I'm praying hard that my birthday present is finally here to stay!!!!

*Muack* I love him!!!!

I have a hubby who wish me dead . . .

I have a hubby who wish me dead. I was sick and lost my voice for 2 days. We had no arguements cause there really isn't anything to argue, he wasn't with me half of the time. Today, I had some voice back. And this bloody dinner issue came up. And he told me, HE HOPE THAT I LOOSE MY VOICE FOR A FEW MORE DAYS!!!!!

He said that I didn't argue with him when I lost my voice. He said I talk less when I lost my voice. He said he was having some peace. GREAT!!!! I HAVE A HUSBAND THAT WISH ME DEAD!!!!!

I didn't argue with him cos there isn't anything to argue. I talk less? Of course. But even when I'm fit, I didn't talk as much as he does. He nags non-stop remember. He wants less conversation. See my post Nov 11 'Between us, no conversation's needed....', he just isn't interested to listen, he just wants me to act out his orders, eat my anger and dignity, be silent on all his mistakes, apologize ONLY for all his complaints, don't need to give an answer/reason for his questions (just say sorry), etc . . .

So OK, fine. I'm not fully well, but I'm back to chocolates and cold water. My throat hurts like mad just after one chocolate. But it's ok, IF IT MAKES HIM HAPPY and IF IT BRINGS SOME PEACE, I'LL RATHER DIE!!!!!!

MOTHER FUCKER....!

Bloody hell! He is ficker-minded, inconsiderate, and a desperate MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!

My friends wanted to meet for dinner. I asked him if he wanted to. HE SAID OK!!!!! I replied my friend OK. Some moments later, he say he doesn't feel like meeting. I tell him to make up his mind cos I have to tell my friend if we change our mind. He asked me why I want to meet. I told him I have things to discuss with one of them regarding work. So, THIS MOTHER FUCKER PICKED IT UP AND CONDEMNED ME FOR NOT KNOWING WHEN TO DO WHAT. He said he feels I don't know what I am doing, to want to discuss work when there are so many people (6 of us) around for dinner. He didn't even bother to find out what I wanted to discuss, it actually is just a small issue but it's good if we have another friend around who will also be affected by the decision. Just a minor chat up. Anyway, even if I really want to discuss serious work issues during dinner, do I deserve to be condemend? I took it that he really didn't want to meet. So I told my friend we won't be going.

A while more, he told me, IF YOU REALLY WANT TO MEET YOUR FRIEND, WE GO LOH!!!! I told him I already rejected them. He asked if I was angry with him. So as not to start a quarrel, I said NO!!!! Bloody hell, but he won't stop. He repeated and repeated for me to get a clear idea of where to discuss work and what relationship I should have with my working partner (does he mean working partner = no friend, friend = no working partner). He nagged and nagged and nagged. Worse, he said that he sees no point in me going to meet so many people for dinner and discuss about work. I told him that he didn't want to go to dinner because he didn't want to go, he just pick on the work discussion issue and blow it up, saying that was the reason why he didn't want to go.

Ain't I right? He said he didn't want to go first, before I said I had something to discuss with my friend. So my work discussion wasn't the issue why he didn't want to go. Of course, when he is out of reason, he just forced his way through and declare me as a loser, the one with bad attitude, the one who started the quarrel, the one who don't know what to say and how to react, and he was FORCED to get angry with me. I didn't say anything else anymore. No point!!! I just said sorry. For all he cares, he continues nagging, and the more he speaks, the angrier he gets, and with or without me rebutting or saying sorry, he is already breathing fire again.

Breathe fire a few more rounds, and he started to threaten to throw my thinkpad out of the window again. What the fuck!!!!

I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!