Life's greatest contradiction . . .!

My wedded husband treats me like shit and makes me unhappy, while a stranger cheers me up and makes me feel good!

Double Standard Freak . . . !

What is practising double standard? Look here for a classic example.

I only asked this fucker a simple question of what time is his lunch. First, he complained that he kept telling me he has a lunch appointment, why did I keep asking him. I told him I asked him what time is his lunch, I didn't ask him what time is our lunch. Just a simple question, why is getting an answer so difficult.

Then what did he do? He still refused to answer, he just said that he is leaving soon. What audacity!!!! Does that answer my simple question of what time his lunch is? NO!!!!!

I asked him again if his answer suits my question. He said 'yes', he has already answered me. Leaving soon means he is going for his lunch soon. Fucking tell me how does it answer my question?????

After that he asked me why I am giving him the cold shoulder. Hey, tell me how not to???? When he asked me a question and I do not answer precisely in 2 secs, I get scolding, not to say if I give an answer which doesn't even point to the question.

What does he do when I complained that he doesn't live up to his own standard? He blows up, scolds me, throws things, bangs door, orders me to apologize and treat him like he is God! He says he is not answerable to anyone. Hey, what's wrong! Who is he to me and how much does he pay me and how much respect does he warrant from me to force me to be totally answerable to him while he doesn't even want to answer my simple question of what time is his lunch???? WHAT"S THERE TO HIDE!?!?!?!?

BLOODY TYRANT!!!!!

Fucker fucking fuck ...

This increadible fucker really knows how to ruin the night. Fancy trying to turn the tables around when he himself make a mistake.

Without even once looked at my screen, he assumed I was playing on the pc and began nagging at me for playing game while watching the TV (anyway, what the fuck even if I'm doing both things at the same time). I shot back saying I wasn't playing, and pricked him with saying he didn't even look at my screen but he already started scolding me for something he assumed.

Since he is definitely wrong, he turned the table around and asked me why I have one of my earpiece in my ear if I want to watch TV (so, what the fuck is it with watching TV and having one earpiece in my ear) and since he mentioned about the earpiece, why didn't I do anything about it. (so now, what the fuck is it with jumping to his every whimp and whimper? who is he? what has he proven to warrant this?)

After 3 mins of staring at his pc, he blurted out loudly and ordered me to answer his repeated questioning again. He scolded for another 2 min and quieten down, only to raise his voice again after 2 mins of rest. What the fuck is with this man?

Finally I managed to have some quiet minutes. Only to hear him throw things around again because he was frustrated that his wires wasn't in order after the part-time maid sweep/mop the floor. What to do when you marry a mad man? Take extra effort to do stupid things like calming him down every other turn of the corner when other normal people do not need to do.

I made him admit that he has over-reacted, and he had done it twice tonight.

After I finally calmed him down, he asked me if the air-con is on in the bedroom. I said no. Within 1 min, he again blew his top. For what? He said I knew he was over-reacting but I was not helping but not responding immediately. To him, I should have jumped right up and on the air-con in the bedroom, or at least say 'no, I will on it in a while'. What a bore!!!!!

So, I have to start all over again to calm him down, reasoning with him that helping him by jumping to his every comment is only superficial. It cannot help the root of the cause (which is his fucking temper). Luckily, I passed this time. He praised me for seeing the confidence in me.

But, so what? Within 10 mins, he is at it again. Just a simple comment like reading the newspaper, he has to put it harshly across, saying 'read the papers, if not buy for what'. So I said OK. Then he asked if the water is refilled. I said OK, I'll do it. By the time I get back, within 5 mins, he commented to remember to eat some fruits, and of course, he won't surprise you by not making a big fuss out of it again. He said 'why didn't we eat fruits? you buy fruits, hide in the fridge for what'. So I got up and went out to take fruits. Then he said 'if you are still feeling full, then we'll take it later'. So if I'm not full? No, you still have to take it later since he had mentioned it. DUH!!!?!?!? Yes, he is that duh!!! So I said OK.

He then started his naggings on why I have to be pushed to do everything in this house, and started blaming me for having no initiative again. GOONESS SAKE!!!!!! Who washed the clothes, who hanged the ironed clothes back into the wardrob, who replace the mat for today????? He really thinks he has to have a hand to everything before it's done? Then it shows a lot on who's taking things for granted.

What's staying together? If I think of something or seeing something not done, I'll do it. And vice versa. Tell me who thinks like him???? If he think of something or see something not done, first, he tells me it's not done, then he blames me for not doing it, then if he is happy, he will do it, if not, he will wait for me to do it even if he is the first one to see that it's not done. Then he prides himself for remembering what to do, and what not to do, and belittle me for those things he sees that are not done. Ask yourself, fucker, those things that you see are in order, do you not realise that it was done without someone bringing it up and nagging at you for it not being done?

Blood sucking fucker!!!!!!!!!

He said he is not demanding . . .

He said he is not demanding and he just want simple things . . .

1) When he ask a question, I have to give a specific answer in 2 seconds. My answer has to be to the point and the main point is to be placed in the first few words of my reply.
2.1a) When I ask a question, he can choose to answer me directly, or throwing another question back at me, or don't answer me at all. I have to take it from then on.
3.1b) When I ask a question, if he did not state the main point first, I have to wait patiently, he is getting to the point, he is creating suspense.

4) When he make a suggestion, I have to be positive about it. I cannot disagree, I cannot rebut, I have to answer him positively even though his suggestion is stupid and not workable.
5.4a) If I make a suggestion, I jolly well be clear of wheter the suggestion is good. If it's not good, then I'm stupid enough to make a suggestion.

6) When he complains about me, I have to say sorry the first instant. No 'ifs', no 'buts'. No excuses. If I have a good reason, I can say it later, but I have to apologize first.
7.6a) When I have a good reason, I have to say it the first instant he complains about me. If not, I'll have to keep my silence. Seriously, it depends on his mood if my reason is good or bad, it doesn't depend on what my reason is and when I say it.

8) When he hints, I have to pick up the hint the first instant and act on it. When I miss his hint, I'm stupid and insensitive to his needs.
9.8a) When I hint and he missed it, I should have stated out clearly what I want instead of throwing hints.

10) When I worked too hard, I'm supposed to have some time for myself, play some games to relax.
11.10a) When I have some time for games, I am supposed to use the time to self-study, learn something new, do something to please him, do some housework, etc... instead of playing.

12) When I reverse-park the car, I have to park it at absolute right angle. When I do not, I am to say sorry and keep practising until I can. When he does not, it's ok, he was not in the mood to do so.

13) When I am angry, I should still talk in a gentle tone and phrase my words in a polite manner, keep my temper in check and say it with a smiling face, and to show a right attitude to him.
14.13a) When he is angry and scolds me like it's armagaddon, I must also talk in a gentle tone, give a good attitude, stand natural, look natural, guess when he want 'sorry' for an answer, or want the true reason as an answer, or want an answer in a specific way that he wants it, dont' answer back, don't rebut (but if I disagree, I can say so, duh!!! how to disagree and say it and don't rebut), calm him down, divert attention, etc...

15) When he expects me to be happy, be happy! When he expects me to be serious, be serious! When he expects me to be sensual, be sensual! When he expects me to be sporty, be sporty! The gist is, he doesnt' say what he expects, I have to know it. When he says it, it means I am in trouble, I am not sensitive enough and I am stupid enough not to know it.

16) When he scolds me, I am expected to say sorry. But he also said that if I'm not sorry, then dont' say sorry. But also, if I dont' say sorry, I cannot rebut. But also when he scolds me, I should say sorry in the first instant.

17) When he is in the wrong, and he apologises the first time, I have to accept it and throw away all my grudges and act like nothing has happened and carry on with life with a smiley face and good attitude.
18.17a) When I am in the wrong, and if I admit it, then I have to shut up and listen to his lectures, no 'ifs', no 'buts', cos I deserve all the scoldings when I'm in the wrong.

19) When he is angry with others, I am not to do any things that will agitate him. What things agitate him? That's up to him to decide. If I console him, but he didn't like it, then I am rebutting him and not supportive. If I reason why others do certain things, I am not supportive. If I try to divert attention, he may scold me for making stupid comments.

20) When I don't sleep at the time he had mentioned, my lifestyle is bad and I do not follow his orders. When he don't sleep early, I cannot nag at him cos he is very busy earning money.

21) He earns big money, and I earn small money. My earning is so little that it's quite worthless. And I am an office dog. So I should strive to look for a different job with higher pay in another company (and still be labelled as an office dog).

22) When I want to explain something, I have to put my main point across first, then elaborate. He HATES the way I phrase my things. But he can do it if he wants to, he wants me to guess what he is aiming at, he want to create suspense and he is getting to the point. Am I picking up a fight?

23) When he sees something that is not done, or he happens to think of something that is not done, he nags and blames me for not having initiative and always having to wait for him to push before things are done.
24.23a) When I see things not done and I mentioned it to him, he either pushes the blame back to me for not doing it, or say sorry once and demanded that he has given in, or tell me to do it since I notice that it's not done. If I nag for more than 3 sentences, he says I want to pick up a fight.

25) When he pleads with me to forgive him and give him a chance to change, and if I do not immediately soften, cool off and forgive him, he will say I'm biased and thus there is no reason for him to change since I look down on him to be like that forever.
26.25) When I said sorry and ask him to give me a chance, he biasly said that even if he gave me chances, I'll never change. And when I told him what he wanted when the reverse situation happened, he said I deserved it and I have to earn my chances instead.

27) When he asks me if I'm hungry and my answer is yes (even if it means 7pm before dinner), I'm living a bad lifestyle as he had instructed me to eat small meals every few hours, even though I do not have the time to eat or the convenience to eat as and when or I dont' even feel hungry. This is so that I will never feel hungry. Hmmmm!
28.27) When he is hungry, we have to grab food for him fast because a hungry man is an angry man. But didn't he live up to his theory about eating small meals every other hour so as not to feel hungry?

to be continued

Well enough to nag again...!

He was hopsitalized for 2 nights, drifting in and out of sleep and feeling giddy and daze. Some unphatomable viral infection hit him in the ear. Oh, what a peaceful period!

He was discharged yesterday, although still feeling a bit giddy. Even before I turned out of the car park, he had already started his usual naggings and ordering. He commented on my handbrake (and obviously he was wrong cos my handbrake was already fully release but he insisted it was not). Then he commented on me not letting him get down first but made a few turns up the multi-storey carpark, which made him giddy. OK, fine, sorry, although you yourself didin't think of it too.

Today, he wanted me to drive to the carpark opposite the mall for lunch. He then said I was not doing a good job going over the hump. Ok, sorry again. I turned into the carpark to drive to the other end to park. He then said that I should drive outside and turn into the carpark at the other end so that I wouldn't need to go through so many humps in the carpark. OK, sorry again, although yes, I didn't realise it until I turned in and you didn't think of it too.

On parking, I commented on which lot should I park. He didn't answer. But when I chose one, he started to comment on why I had to choose that one. Then he said I didn't park straight. And then he continue with his nagging of why didn't I choose to park at the lot beside the one that I parked. I said sorry and offered to repark. He indicated not to bother and said that if there happened to be bird shit, then I'll have to clean it up. But he still continued to nag non-stop about why I chose that parking lot. I said I thought that lot was nearer to the exit. He nagged and nagged and kept asking me why I parked there. I apologized and answered again cos I thought that lot was nearer the exit. Then he blew up. He accused me of rebutting him and insisting that I am correct. I asked him what makes him think that I was insisting that I was right. He said cos I insisted on the same wrong point of saying that lot is nearer to the exit. GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME!!!!! I told him I had said sorry but he kept on asking me. If he asked me the same question 5 times, and I gave him 1 consistent answer, it doesn't mean that I'm insistent on being right. Hey dude, you asked me the same question, do you want 5 different answers? And then I'll be accused of giving excuses and trying to wiggle my way out. He then said that if I admit that I'm wrong, then I should totally avoid talking about it anymore. OK, I'll stop talking about it, then can you fucking hell stop asking me that question and insist that I have to answer you!?!?!?!?!

DUH!!!!!!