Monday, March 17, 2008

THAT BUGGER IS ANNOYING. . . . . !

He is simply detestable to the extreme! While coming back home, he mentioned about having good habits can bring someone far. He talked about how hardworking he had been and how much effort he had put into something, and that's why he sees results. OK! Granted! I see results from the hardwork that he put in to some of his actions. But I don't see him putting in effort to have a better temper, or to try to make a peaceful life. So, as normal as ever, to be pointed out that he is not doing something right, or not good in something, he is all to the defense (and oh, he was the one who told me that he hated it that I always jump to my defense instead of thinking through it first, but then, lo and behold, he did it himself, and as often as I could count the stars in the sky). Soon, he had found his angle of attack, he blasted that being angry is not a habit, it's a temperament. And hardwork cannot be put in to change a temperament and it's a person's character and nature. The more he explained himself, the more he got angry, and in the end, he was already shouting at the top of his voice. Yea! Self fulfilling prophecy!!!!!

He said that I was stupid not to have understand him earlier. DUH! I told him he didn't explained himself clearly enough for me to understand, but he called me stupid. Then if he was the one who didn't understand me, I"m still the stupid one! What a man! Surprisingly, he apologized! Wow, he said he didn't realize that I did not understand him that's why he did not explain himself more clearly and thus he take back his word of me being stupid! WOW, I should buy 4D!!!

Nonetheless, he still rattled on and on about character, about speedster who should have good habits to drive responsibly. So I asked him if I have a character that if things went haywire but not beyond my own limits, I will find my chance of getting my way back, but not through the dramatized way of blowing up a big hoo-ha, what's wrong with that! Alright, pushed to a corner, he said yes, then that's my character and there's nothing wrong. Good! At least I made him understand a point that I had been trying to tell him. But I don't know if he will change his fucking way of forcing me to react in a way that is not in-tuned with my character the next time something crops up.

After admitting this, he, as per how his big ego will bring him to, started saying that I had rebutted him again and he hated it and it's a bad habit and I should have changed it. Kao! The old story reenacts again. He rattled on with blames and I said sorry to try to stop the quarrelling, and of cos, he would take none of it and kept on rattling and rattling and rattling until I couldn't take it and told him that he said he wanted to stop but by the next second, he was at it again. Then all the more he would accuse me of rebutting and didn't help him and pushed him to a corner that he would rattle on none stop. DUH! I TOLD HIM COUNTLESS OF TIMES, I TOLD HIM TO THINK THROUGH IT AND CHANGE HIS IRRITATING HABIT OF RATTLING ON AND ON, IGNORING MY APOLOGIES, AND THEN WHEN I WAS PUSHED TO THE LIMIT AND TOLD HIM TO STOP, THEN HE SAID I HAD NOT PUT IN ANY EFFORT TO REBUT HIM. It's ridiculous! I had stopped, I was just saying 'sorry', 'understand', 'yes' & 'no'. But he was the one who continued and continued and continued non-stop. And in the end when I tried to remind him that he had been rattling on, he said I was rebutting. Great! Tell me how does he expect to be help when I could not remind him that he is rattling, and he would not stop when I had already continually said 'sorry'. He really didn't stop all the way, he blamed me for telling him to shut up. I was so fed up after minutes of nagging that I just told him to carry on then. And then, he flew into a rage, which was not out of my expectations. I was so upset with him, I told him that even if I didn't say carry on, he would have carried on, if I did say it, he would still have carried on, if I didn't say shut up, he would also have carried on and if I did say shut up, all the more he would have carried on. I told him to think hard and deep on this issue. He got angrier cos of this (and I didn't care). Fuck!

On the way up the lift, he told me that me getting angry and rebutting him is a bad habit. That made me even more mad. I can't stop giving him a piece of my mind. When he gets angry, he says it's temperament, but when I get angry, it's a bad habit. He is fucking contradicting his own theory. Yea, typical case of quoting the bible for his own purpose. Finally, we came to a halt, agreeing that we should stop.

Minutes later, he started it again. He said that I had put words in his mouth. I forgot what he said. It was so out of the blue and so 'not-applicable'. I told him that I will not put words in his mouth and he don't put words in my mouth too cos I did not said what he accused me of. Then I told him that I was trying to help him and asked him to stop rattling on. DUH, without the last word, he will die. He in turn asked me if I was trying to point out his mistake and saying that I had none. I really felt like breathing down his neck. I told him I had never said that I'm without faults, I was merely trying to help him by telling him that he is rattling on and he needed to stop. Just like how he kept telling me that I have this bad habit and that bad habit and he wanted me to change. Finally, I managed to shut his GAP up!!!!