THAT BUGGER IS ANNOYING. . . . . !

He is simply detestable to the extreme! While coming back home, he mentioned about having good habits can bring someone far. He talked about how hardworking he had been and how much effort he had put into something, and that's why he sees results. OK! Granted! I see results from the hardwork that he put in to some of his actions. But I don't see him putting in effort to have a better temper, or to try to make a peaceful life. So, as normal as ever, to be pointed out that he is not doing something right, or not good in something, he is all to the defense (and oh, he was the one who told me that he hated it that I always jump to my defense instead of thinking through it first, but then, lo and behold, he did it himself, and as often as I could count the stars in the sky). Soon, he had found his angle of attack, he blasted that being angry is not a habit, it's a temperament. And hardwork cannot be put in to change a temperament and it's a person's character and nature. The more he explained himself, the more he got angry, and in the end, he was already shouting at the top of his voice. Yea! Self fulfilling prophecy!!!!!

He said that I was stupid not to have understand him earlier. DUH! I told him he didn't explained himself clearly enough for me to understand, but he called me stupid. Then if he was the one who didn't understand me, I"m still the stupid one! What a man! Surprisingly, he apologized! Wow, he said he didn't realize that I did not understand him that's why he did not explain himself more clearly and thus he take back his word of me being stupid! WOW, I should buy 4D!!!

Nonetheless, he still rattled on and on about character, about speedster who should have good habits to drive responsibly. So I asked him if I have a character that if things went haywire but not beyond my own limits, I will find my chance of getting my way back, but not through the dramatized way of blowing up a big hoo-ha, what's wrong with that! Alright, pushed to a corner, he said yes, then that's my character and there's nothing wrong. Good! At least I made him understand a point that I had been trying to tell him. But I don't know if he will change his fucking way of forcing me to react in a way that is not in-tuned with my character the next time something crops up.

After admitting this, he, as per how his big ego will bring him to, started saying that I had rebutted him again and he hated it and it's a bad habit and I should have changed it. Kao! The old story reenacts again. He rattled on with blames and I said sorry to try to stop the quarrelling, and of cos, he would take none of it and kept on rattling and rattling and rattling until I couldn't take it and told him that he said he wanted to stop but by the next second, he was at it again. Then all the more he would accuse me of rebutting and didn't help him and pushed him to a corner that he would rattle on none stop. DUH! I TOLD HIM COUNTLESS OF TIMES, I TOLD HIM TO THINK THROUGH IT AND CHANGE HIS IRRITATING HABIT OF RATTLING ON AND ON, IGNORING MY APOLOGIES, AND THEN WHEN I WAS PUSHED TO THE LIMIT AND TOLD HIM TO STOP, THEN HE SAID I HAD NOT PUT IN ANY EFFORT TO REBUT HIM. It's ridiculous! I had stopped, I was just saying 'sorry', 'understand', 'yes' & 'no'. But he was the one who continued and continued and continued non-stop. And in the end when I tried to remind him that he had been rattling on, he said I was rebutting. Great! Tell me how does he expect to be help when I could not remind him that he is rattling, and he would not stop when I had already continually said 'sorry'. He really didn't stop all the way, he blamed me for telling him to shut up. I was so fed up after minutes of nagging that I just told him to carry on then. And then, he flew into a rage, which was not out of my expectations. I was so upset with him, I told him that even if I didn't say carry on, he would have carried on, if I did say it, he would still have carried on, if I didn't say shut up, he would also have carried on and if I did say shut up, all the more he would have carried on. I told him to think hard and deep on this issue. He got angrier cos of this (and I didn't care). Fuck!

On the way up the lift, he told me that me getting angry and rebutting him is a bad habit. That made me even more mad. I can't stop giving him a piece of my mind. When he gets angry, he says it's temperament, but when I get angry, it's a bad habit. He is fucking contradicting his own theory. Yea, typical case of quoting the bible for his own purpose. Finally, we came to a halt, agreeing that we should stop.

Minutes later, he started it again. He said that I had put words in his mouth. I forgot what he said. It was so out of the blue and so 'not-applicable'. I told him that I will not put words in his mouth and he don't put words in my mouth too cos I did not said what he accused me of. Then I told him that I was trying to help him and asked him to stop rattling on. DUH, without the last word, he will die. He in turn asked me if I was trying to point out his mistake and saying that I had none. I really felt like breathing down his neck. I told him I had never said that I'm without faults, I was merely trying to help him by telling him that he is rattling on and he needed to stop. Just like how he kept telling me that I have this bad habit and that bad habit and he wanted me to change. Finally, I managed to shut his GAP up!!!!

Some sucker who's lack of confidence . . . !

He asked me if I realise that we have quarrelled less often recently. Ha! Yes, and why so? Cos he was too busy running about in town and less often at home with me! That's why! But he thinks otherwise. Trust that bastard to feel good about himself over such things!

Anyway, let's move on to what made me mad enough to write this post. After losing a mahjong session, (he lost quite heavily), he said that '呈你贵言, you just said that I may lose and I really lost, etc . . . . ' Whatever he said after the first four words are insignificant. The first 4 words already didn't sound right to me. 呈你贵言 means 'because of your great words'. They are used on occasions that somebody said something good, and one thank the other for the blessing. When it is used on an occasion where something bad had occurred that led to something bad happening, it gives an element of blame. I have always used it sparingly because I do not want to feel that I'm sulking when something bad happens. But he felt otherwise. He felt that the phrase was used just at the right time on the right topic in the right way and it meant to be a joke.

When a conflicting issue like this crops up, of course there will be disagreement and unhappiness. First, I didn't remember saying the words that he claimed I said in that context. And second, it sounded like he was blaming me cos he lost. How not to get offended when he was the one who preached that when one loses, he should be gutsy enough to admit defeat and not to blame others for the lost. I told him casually that I thought I had said something to the effect of 'I'll be very very happy for him when he wins', before the sentence of 'I'm afraid that he will get even more stressed up when he loses'. And I was saying why didn't he mention about the good part. I jokingly said that he blamed me for his lost.

What did he do? Not too difficult to guess. He immediately changed a tone and hardened up his face and told me that I DID SAY THAT AND HE IS CORRECT! He insisted that I had remembered wrongly. That I indeed said the 'losing' sentence and that the 'winning' sentence was said at a different context from the 'losing' one. Whatever, nobody did any recording. I won't insist (you thought me never to insist if there is no proof cos I may really be wrong), but he, the man who is full of principles, insisted and insisted that he was correct. Oh man! Another outright evidence of someone who doesn't do what he preaches.

I saw him starting his incredible temper soon and held back my own feelings that I was offended by his words and attitude. I apologized although seriously, I did not know why I need to. But he was already out of control. His naggings went on and on and on about him stating the fact that I only mentioned about him losing and that using the 呈你贵言 in the sentence is correct. He went on his own rampage and said that I am a loser and I lack self-confidence and I always want the last words and I always rebut.

A loser I am not. He had lost and then linked it to my words. ''呈你贵言' or 'Because of your great words', you said that I may lose and I really lost . . . !' Doesn't it sound like he is blaming me for his lost? If his grasps of Chinese is not that powerful enough to know when and how to use these 4 words, he didn't think so. He thought I was the loser and thus was over-sensitive that he didn't mean to blame me, and instead he was just joking that it was really 'because of my great words' that he lost. Errrr . . . confusing. Yea, but he INSIST THAT HE IS RIGHT AND HE KNOWS HOW TO USE THE WORDS AND HE HAD USED IT CORRECTLY, IN THE RIGHT CONTEXT ON THE RIGHT SUBJECT AT THE RIGHT TIME!

Lack of self-confidence I am not. I have the confidence that I know I did say that he may win too, right before the sentence that he may lose. I had voiced out my thoughts. And I know that the 4 words are not aptly used and I voiced out my concern and displeasure too. I am not meek and lack of self-confidence that I'll always doubt myself whenever I found some differences between what he claims and what I know. After he 'explained' his position, or rather insisted on his ground reasonably, I was opened to new ways of speaking (like using the 4 words but taking it jokingly with no hint of blaming) and is willing to accept his explanation, I have the confidence that if I apologize there and then, I'll still not lose. It's just a different set of opinions. Apologisation and quieting down is not a sign of losing. So I did that. But he did not, he went on and insisted that his and only his way of using it was correct, and that he had remembered what I had said and was very confident that he was right (to him, his display of confidence is being loud and insisting that he is right. but if I insist that I am right, I am showing attitude). Maybe he felt that once he backed down, he would lose all credibility in the future. He cannot lose, he will lose ground in the relationship if he loses and or even try to hold back. Now, who lacks self-confidence?

Having the last words I do not need. It is HE who needs the last word. Cos if he didn't have the last word, he would think that he had lost the battle, he had lost his foot in this relationship, he had lost face, basically, he had lost! Isn't this lack of self-confidence? DUH!

Sicko Non-repentent

Bet he was testing me, he mentioned that he had a lunch appointment tomorrow. Of which I gave an OK and continued watching TV. I think he was expecting me to ask him who and where.

After a while, I asked him where he was having his lunch. I wanted to see if it's on the way to my office. He replied saying 'He needs to do this lunch. With that bitch'. I forgot if I asked him why, but I didn't change my tone. But guess what he said.

He said 'you had shouted at her and was very rude, so I have to treat her lunch to apologize to her.' I told him I have no regrets. I still wasn't shouting. But he continued to say that I had went there to 闹, I really fumed. What does he mean when he said that I 闹. I stood up and asked him to explain himself. To me, he sounded like I had 无理取闹. What the hell, does he mean I had no reason to be so angry and kicked up a big fuss for no reason!?!?!?!?!?!?

He lied to me and I caught him red-handed, and he said that my anger is baseless. That shows how much he had repented. He talked like I did something wrong to that bitch and he had to go and treat her lunch to apologize on my behalf. Please, I do not regret what I had done and I don't need to apologize to her at all, why does he need to treat her lunch and apologize for me scolding her? She deserves it, every bit. And he deserves to be scolded by her if she was angry for being scolded by me. Why did he say it like I am to be blamed for her being angry and him needing to treat her lunch and apologize to her????

I asked him if I have the right to be angry. He said he know that it was not my character to shout at people. Damn! I blew my top. I told him he doesn't really know me. I don't get angry often doesn't mean I do not have a temper. I am a girl with pride. Does he think that everybody can walk all over my head and I still am expected to smile and be nice to that asshole? I do not have a habit of scolding people, but if somebody ever cross the line and goes too much overboard, does he still expect me to be nice to that asshole? And if my character is such, does he think that he had gone too much overboard and had caused me to not be my normal self?

He said no matter what, I had been rude and he needed to apolgoize. I told him specifically that he needs to apologize to her that he lied to me and caused me to be very angry and did it to her. He shouldn't be apologizing to her that I had done something wrong. From then on, he started saying he didn't say I was in the wrong and it was he who was wrong that caused me to do something out of ordinary. Bloody him! He needed me to point out to him that the gist of it is HE HAD LIED TO ME AND I HAD CAUGHT HIM RED-HANDED AND THAT WAS WHY I BLEW MY TOP!!!!!!! He didn't realise why he was wrong until I told him the difference. So he blamed me for not acting in a proper manner that day. Tell me if this is not unrepentent, this is what!!!!!!!!

He said we have settled the issue between us, and he had to settle the issue with her and treat her to lunch. I told him he should have treated me to 3 meals and apologize to me formerly. He said he did. I asked him did he apologize about the previous bitch. He said I was thinking too much again. Bloody him! I told him we are 2 couples, and 3 of us had admitted that whatever went on shouldn't have happened and was wrong, but he still insisted that he had done nothing wrong. That bitch even told her hubby to try to meet me to apologize face-to-face, and he still can deny that he did wrong. I asked him has he ever been repentent about his ways. I told him my trust for him was at negative, and he had promised to do something about it. But what did he do? He went on with another story with another stupid bitch. I told him she had already confessed on the lacy panties that he had bought were for her, and for her wedding present, but what did he do, he still deny that it had happened. I had all the evidence spread out on the table for him, but he still tried to wiggle his way without admitting his own error.

He argued that he did say his sorry. I told him to say it again. He said 'sorry'. I asked him sorry for what, tell me one whole sentence about what he was sorry about regarding that previous bitch. He kept quiet. He kept quiet for a few minutes, he just didn't know what to say. See, he still doesn't want to admit his wrongdoings. Finally, he said he was sorry, that maybe they went too far and too close. I threw his comment back to him. I told him he had never apologized to me. Even when he tried, he still had to use 'but', 'if' and 'maybe' to show that he was not wrong.

I told him evidence was so clear. I had that previous bitch's husband calling me to apologize. I had the current bitch confessing that he had bought lacy panties for her. But he still refused to admit either of it without any 'but', 'if' or 'maybe'. What did he do? He again stood against the claim that he had bought lacy panties for her, and he said he would ask that bitch herself about it. I told him it would be best if three of us would sit down and talk about it. He said fine, if I'm free tomorrow, we shall all have lunch together. I said I have all the time in the world. He said before meeting her for lunch tomorrow, I'll have to think through it and calm myself down. I told him at tomorrow's lunch, he better watch what he says, if he ever put the blame on me for causing much unhappiness, he better be careful. He told me he hates to be threatened. I told him I hate to be lied to. He kept quiet.

He then said that I was not in a mind to talk reasonably. And that I had acted rashly. I told him I had kept my cool for so many damn long years, that's more then enough to consider my fair share. He said maybe it is his retribution that I am so unreasonable when I am angry because he must be as unreasonable when he was in a foul mood. He asked to go to sleep and me to calm down. I told him his retribution is not enough, he could ask to go to sleep and I said yes, I'm letting him out too easily.

He walked out and walked back, and tried to tell me my temper was very bad and I was beyond reasoning. I told him check on himself when he blares on non-stop every other day when his temper got the better of him. He said he doesn't want us to end up not on talking terms because of my unreasonableness. I told him who did want it to end when I told him to go to sleep and he had walked back to start another talk. He smiled and asked me if I had been scolding people before I met him. I said no. He asked if I would go on non-stop when I start scolding people. I said no. Then he said he should look at himself and change because I'm learning his wrong way of dealing with things and it's not good!

Asshole!!!!!! If you dare try to blame me again for what had happened on that Friday a few weeks back, I'll have you eat your own shit!

Crazy

How crazy can one get? I'll tell you how!

After a whole day out at work, he came home. After just a few minutes of changing out, he went to the kitchen, I went too, and commented 'It's so hot until I'm sweating!'

The next thing I know, he was bellowing to me about why I am stupid enough not to on the aircon. He wasn't nagging, he wasn't advicing, he was shouting at the top of his voice, hurling abuses at me, ordering me to appear in front of him immediately. I was bewildered, but I had tried not to take it too personally (like what he says I normally am, and that was why I always think that he is scolding me while he is just commenting). I went to him and said sorry. But he did not stop. His face was as black as charcoal. He was still roaring at me saying I was idiot and I was stupid not to on the aircon. I told him directly that I am not going to take it personally and I apologized again. But still, he did not stop. I ended up getting scolded like I had killed someone. I tried to calm him down, but he shook me off, and continued to belittle me. I grew irritated and started to tell him how ridiculous he is, he just stepped back home and had already started a quarrel out of nothing, I told him I'll rather he is outside and I have peace and quiet here instead of having him to return and pick up a fight immediately.

So there he went again. Ordering me to stand in front of him, and stand normally (I seriously don't know what is normal to him, when he is angry, he simply find anything that you do to blame you), talk normally, and etc... I had enough, so I told him I want to go to the bedroom to cool down. Basically, I just want to get this stupid jerk out of my face. Finally after rounds of saying sorry, I was free to go. But he still has to pop in to the room and give me a dress down before leaving me alone.

I dozed off a while, but woke up soon after. I felt hungry and decided to go for dinner. I purposely did not talk to him or call him for dinner. When he heard me opening the door, he called me. I told him I'm hungry but I shouldn't complain before I had started solving it, so I didn't want to tell him I was hungry. Ha! I know, I'm irritating him. But I wanted to! So in the end, we had another reasoning session. He said sorry for shouting at me, but it's just him, his sorry came with other accusations and expectations from me.

Whatever . . . !

I'm a self-certified Private Eye

Hey, being a Private Eye isn't all that difficult. I successfully caught CM with that Bitch today. It wasn't the first time I had tried to catch them after their secret lunch. In early July, I had already figured out what time they need to get back from lunch and where he dropped her off after meals. This time round, it's not that difficult to plan where to stand and at what time to be there.

I deliberately called him at 1330 to force him to tell me where he is. He was his normal sly self, telling me he was eating. He didn't mention about his location. I deliberately suggested a location and asked him if he was there. He said yes. First step accomplished. He managed to fall snuggly into my trap. When the time to come back to office neared, I positioned myself behind a pillar opposite her office. Right when I had expected them to pull in, they did just that. Cool! I was all ready to pounce on them. I walked right across the street, opened the driver's door, off the engine, pulled the key (actually it's half the key, luckily I didn't spoil it) out, and shouted at him 'Tanjong Pagar?'. I slammed his door and realised that the bitch was already trying to head back to her office as fast as she could. I shouted at her 'Bitch, stop where you are going.' Ha, she responded. What a bitch!

I asked her what is it about meeting him every week for lunch or tea. Nothing unexpected came from her. Denial, denial and denial! She promised me there is nothing going on between them. I told her, yes, you didn't go to bed with him, so? It's so normal to have some guy pop over every week to have lunch or tea with her and she feels it's fine? She said it's normal, she has guy friends who are very close to her, she doesn't think that he is interested in her, and he only happens to be in the vicinity that's why he is meeting her for lunch or tea. What crap. I told her it's not normal for a guy to meet a girl every week for lunch, and for goodness sake he doesn't work there, what makes her think that he is in the vicinity and just popping by for lunch. I told her I have her stuff in my hands, a scrunchy which I'm not sure if it's hers but lacey panties are definitely hers. She dared to stare wide eye at me, like I do not know what I am talking about. I told her years ago, he ordered online from FigLeave, 2 lacey panties for her. She then acted like she suddenly remembered, then she said he had wanted to give her a wedding present. Great, I pinned her to it. Does she think it is that normal for some guy to buy lacey panties for another girl for wedding present? But this bitch had the cheek to tell me she didn't get it. I told her of course she didn't get it, that's because they are in my hands. So she knew he had bought it for her (I didn't mention when it happened, I just said a few years back, but she knew it was when she had her wedding), and she is lying through her teeth that she thinks he has no feelings towards her, and she had lied that she didn't know what he is getting for her although he told her he is getting something for her as a wedding present (then how in the world did she associate the panties to her wedding). Stupid, plain stupid!

I told her she has been very unfair to her hubby. She said her hubby knows that they have been meeting. I asked her her hubby knows that they had been meeting up every week, she said yes. One day, I'll get his number and ask him personally if these secret lunches and tea sessions go on.

She gave me crap stories saying she has other guy friends who are also that close to her. I asked her so those guys meet her up every week. She said they are not that free. Fine. So those guys aren't as close lah. It's a different story when a guy meets a girl EVERY WEEK compared to close but meet only now and then for meals. Duh! Another stupid comment!

Anyway, I told her the best way is to fuck off and be gone from this world! I headed back to confront him. He was talking on the phone. Heck! I shouted at him again. 'Tanjong Pagar?' He quickly got off the phone. I asked him again. 'Tanjong Pagar? Alone? Checking if the sun shines on your store?' He tried to defend himself. 'No, I said I was eating.' Luckily he did not go on after that. He was caught red-handed and he still dared to try to wiggle his way out. He apologised immediately and said he would drive me home. I wouldn't get into the car cos he would drive around madly. He promised he would not. So I got in, and started shouting at him for half the journey. At first, he said sorry about lying but he didn't want to admit that he is wrong. He said he didn't want me to be unhappy that's why he lied to me, he insisted he didn't meet her weekly, he tried to find a way out with the lacey panties. But he has no corner to hide. I had all the cards in my hands. He had indeed lied to me, she had admitted about the lacey panties and if they had not met for one week, that's because she was not in town or he had been very busy. But once he has the chance, he will go out of his way to meet her. He was speechless while I ranted on about his past misdeeds. I told him there were so many people who got worried for me because he had been too close to another girl for comfort. Even when the other bitch's hubby called me up to complain and that bitch herself wanted to meet me to apologise, he was trying to deny everything. Now that he is caught red-handed by me, he is still trying to wiggle his way out by pure denial again. I told him his integrity of owning up to his faults and quietly bear the scoldings have gone down the drain. He had showed me nothing apart from pure denial and trying to look for excuses instead of admitting and bearing the consequences.

I told him partners are there to help each other in achieving their best, but my partner is not. I did not like to fly partly because he contributed to it. I prefer a job with a lot of flexibility because of him as well. I have to do so much to protect my self interest that I cannot concentrate fully on making the most out of my career. I tell him not to blame me when he is abusing my trust and the freedom that I had given him. I told him as a scorpion, I am supposed to be full of jealousy. But I gave him so much freedom on the contrary. Yet he took it for granted and abused it.

Now, I have the upper hand, I'll slowly torture him!

Fuck, what lives in your head? Worms?

Fuck, what lives in your head? Worms? Crazy!!!!

Yes, just now I had lingered a bit too long for the receipt when there were 2 drunkards in the store beside us at the counter. But why? Cos when I did not take the receipt? I was scolded upside down by you. Common sense? Don't talk about common sense to me. You are full of crap reasons when you scold me. There are no common sense. And you don't want common sense from me as well. Cos you stated the 'law', that I just follow your instructions, which sometimes is extremely bizarre or senseless. Most of the time, actually. Do I need common sense when I only need to follow your instructions? No!

Go tell me what exactly you want. Someone who can think for herself and act accordingly? Or someone who just does what you told her to, doesn't need to think and doesn't need to judge. If you want the former, please, stop ordering me about and scolding me whenever I do things differently from you. If you want the latter, then stop asking me to have some common sense and judge for myself. Seriously, there may be situations where either one of them will come in useful, but for your case, no. Cos you scold me like there's no tomorrow and that you don't need to breathe between words. If you have not been so hard, there's always room for a turnaround. But with your kinda scolding, it's just you, you and you who are in the wrong when things happened.

Duh!!!!

5 times in a day . . . what can be worse! (maybe death)

PMS for this guy went horrible wrong!

First thing after he woke up, we went to have lunch. We got in the car, and he then said that we needed to go to the shopping mall in our neighbourhood for some errand. He asked me what I wanted to have for lunch. I said I did not have any cravings and no preference as well. Shortly after, I realised he did not turn into the road heading towards the shopping mall, so I asked him where we were going. He replied we could pop by later after we went somewhere else for lunch. He asked me where we should go. I again said I do not have any preference. He didn't mention much again and drove on. He was driving like he had somewhere in mind. Finally, we reached the destination, but it was crowded. With no parking lots and it had started drizzling, we had to move on. He then asked again where else could we go. I mentioned two other shopping malls. No answer from him, after which we were continuing our conversation on other issues like we had done earlier. A distance later, he suddenly asked the question again, and started blaming me for not making any decisions, always doesn't know what to eat, have no ideas and such. Although bewildered (I had mentioned 2 other shopping malls just now), I replied that I would think of one. A minute later, I said Ikea. Know what he said? He said 'No, I don't want to go to Ikea. Why do you want to go to Ikea?' I said I just wanted to go to Ikea. He then complained that whenever he asked me to decide on something, I have no preference, but when he had decided on something, I would have some other suggestions to make.

Holy cow, when did he decide on something? I asked him specifically if he had communicated his decision to me which I did not heed. He said he did not tell me! DUH!!!!!! So what stupid comment was he making. I decided to drop the case. He is the king, remember. He can blame you whenever, wherever and whatever he wants, but you can't take him on even if he really is ridiculously unreasonable.

That's 1!

We finally reached our destination. Guess where??? One of the shopping malls that I had mentioned. DUH!!!!! Nevermind, I can't be bothered to point out to him. He is the king (or tyrant, I would say)!

After having lunch, my treat, we had tea again, my treat. After which, we headed back to our car. He started asking about our holiday. In no time, he had already spurn the topic to how bad my job is. That my pay suckx, that my leave is too little, that project timeline is screwed, and then it spurn on to be my attitude in life, my motivation, my goals, my dreams, or lack of it, and this, and that and it went out of control predictably. I bet he chose his words so that it will prick me hard and hurt me deep. I had started off apologizing and saying my 'okies'. But he wouldn't stop. He went on and on and started getting louder and louder. His face became darker and darker, his tone harsher and harsher. And finally, when I couldn't stand it no more, and deviated from my 'sorries' and 'okies', he then started scolding me for rebutting, showing a bad attitude, never listening to him, refusing to admit my faults, etc . . . We finally reached the car, but his 'chantings' hadn't stop. He was shouting at the top of his voice in the car. Deafening, I should say! If not for his phone ringing, he would have gone on forever.

That's 2!

After he got off his phone, he tried to make up. In silence, we drove to our neighbourhood shopping mall to run our errands. I went about doing my things, 1 errand for me and 2 for him, while not talking to him much. After finishing everything, we got into the car again to head back home. Our house is just a short 3 min drive. But before we even got out from the carpark, he was already starting another session of naggings. He started off by saying he was feeling strain in his neck because of the shouting just now. Immediately after this, he continued with his complaints and again, his tone got harsher and harsher. I tried to 'put out the fire', but he wouldn't let me. In the end, it became just another session of me apologizing profusely while he didn't even lift a brow to contain his anger. I was so relieved that he went to bed right after he came home. At least I had some peace.

That's 3!

I packed his table, as I had promised yesterday. He said he would iron the clothes, but however high he set his standards for me, he surely isn't doing the same for himself. Anyway, if he upkeep his word but forgo his sleep, I would probably get hell as well. So might as well let him be. After he woke up, we prepared for dinner. He suggested going for a good dinner on him. I guessed somewhat that he wanted to make up again. Alright, better late then never. But guess what, on our way to the restaurant, he started ranting again about my job. (Wonder why there are so many gals out there who don't know how to shut their gap, but I must be the one gal who isn't those sort but instead has a husband that will die if he keeps his gap shut) Luckily, I managed to 'put out the fire' again by reminding him that he had wanted to go for a good dinner because he wanted to put the bad atmosphere we had this afternoon behind, so he should be putting in more effort in making this work. Finally, he quieten down. But after a few sentences, he started to veer towards it again. I again reminded him that he shouldn't be doing it. He said he had my interest at heart. I told him thanx, but trying to solve a problem by just creating another isn't the way. He finally decided to zip up!

That's 4!

After dinner, we went to his parents' house to set up the pc. He needed the washroom badly while I did the job of fixing up the pc in replace of the old set. I was nearly done with the hardware. He came in and wanted me to install some software. Fine, I'll do that job, not a very difficult one. We were watching a movie on tv. When the movie finished, he commented that the downloading of one of the files was taking quite long and said that we would just abandon it. OK, so I did just that. On reaching on car, he realised that we got a booking ticket for overstaying. Then he started getting agitated. In a winkle of an eye, he had started blaming me for staying too long upstairs. He blamed me for being stupid and had not realised that the downloading of one of the files was too slow. He said it would have been avoided. Fine, I apologized a few times. Seriously, I only started to download the file at most 15 mins ago. But we got our ticket about 50mins ago. Nonetheless, he still pointed the finger at me. He began speeding back to our carpark, accelerating over humps. I was really annoyed. I told him I'll pay for the ticket then (what's $10????). When he zoomed up the carpark and parked the car, he started shouting at me again. For showing bad attitude, for rebutting him, for being stupid. I apologized again. And guess what, he said why didn't I apologize just now. I really feel like recording our whole life on tape 24/7. I apologized more then once just now but he brushed it aside. He continued with his rantings and finally it was the last straw on the camel's back and I snapped back, he took it that that was the starting of the quarrel and I had never said my apologies at all. Is this a man? Or does he have too many female hormones that made him as unreasonable as that other woman on the street? We finally went up our flat. He started shouting at me in the lift again. He told me if I didn't mention about the $10, he wouldn't have gotten so mad. (Yea, one of his another stupid comment again. If he ain't so angry, why did he ram the engine while turning the corner and accelerated over the humps? Cos he was joking with me? ) His comments were so bizarre that I couldn't help snarling at them. And so, it ended up him shouting vulgarities and belittling me again. What's new! Whenever is he man enough to reason instead of forcing others to listen to his orders. I still had to go through his lecturing when I reached home. Oh, did I say he banged the door again. It was really nothing new. Same old tactics that he used when he throw his tantrums. Spoilt brat!!!!!

That's 5!

I said to myself, if I were in any path of danger, I would not budge even an inch. What's there to lose if I die. A good husband? Definitely not. A good life? Not that I have one too.